Kali Mist (cartridge) doesn't work as well as I'd hoped | Indica

7/25/2019

The cartridge just doesn't work as well as the bud. It's better than nothing, but I'm not as productive as I am with just the buds. Also, I can get too high on the cartridge, whereas I haven't with the buds. Depression can leak through it, though I don't know if that's me just failing to keep a proper high going.

Concern: the last couple times I smoked this I had chest pain. I have no idea if it's related to this, I want to say it's coincidence, but I'll keep an eye on it. (Although, being worried about the chest pain could bring it on. Yay anxiety disorder.)

Kali Mist (cartridge) | THC 79.6% CBD0.28% | Indica

OG Deadhead | THC 24% CBD 0% | Hybrid

7/23/2019

Tastes like black pepper. Good.

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Purple Girl Scout Cookies | Chemdog 91

7/22/2019

Smooth. Tastes earthy. Taking Purple GSC (grower: Old Gold Gardens) right after Bruce Banner so that will still be influencing. 

Took Chemdog 91 (Indo Supply) next. Feeling anxieties but that could also be because I’m way too high now. Not like I’m super anxious but some. Maybe feel it in my chest.

A bit later. Maybe an hour or so later. Depressed. Maybe the second one wasn’t a good idea. Or maybe it’s jusg a bad idea when mixed with the other(s). Still overthinking everything.

Now taking cherry pie with critical mass to see if they’ll help. My hope is that cherry pie will help with depression and see if critical mass helps offset the added THC because of its high percentage of CBD.

Bruce Banner 3 | Hybrid
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Purple Girl Scout Cookies | THC 27.3% CBD 0% | Hybrid 
Old Gold Gardens

Chemdog 91 | THC 20.11% CBD 0.06% | Hybrid 
Indo Supply

Critical Mass |  THC 9.61% CBD 14.5% | Indica dominant 
Cherry Pie | THC 23.96% CBD 0.19% | Indica hybrid

Bruce Banner 3 | Hybrid

7/20/2019

Relaxed, feel like this might be a working high. Helps depression.

Cherry Pie and Critical Mass with auditory hallucination | Indica

7/18/2019

Some auditory hallucination after smoking cherry pie mixed with critical mass. Took a while for that to click in.

Too high on TJ’s Monkey Tape | Sativa dominant

7/19/2019

Sitting on the back porch and thinking about what I’d do with a yard of my own this size. A goldfish “pond” in one corner. (I think I’d need bigger pond than would fit for koi.) Plant lemonmint (wromg name for plant) and other taller plants that catch my eye between it and the fence. In other corner of yard have an herb garden, including the thing that hangs on the fence to give me more ways to grow them. Then one or two chairs with an umbrella.

Too high, not bad but I’m twitchy.

It’s helping with depression.

TJ's Monkey Tape | THC 22.96% CBD 0.096% | Sativa/HY

7/18/2018

Definitely helps with depression. It's been bad with me feeling worthless and useless and like I shouldn't bother people with my existence, but while on this I feel pretty ok. I think it also helps with anxiety.

Not a working high, but I don't think it would prevent being productive in ways that don't require a lot of thinking. Like, I could do chores, but I question if I'd be able to study while high on Monkey Tape. (Now I'm curious to put that to the test sometime.)

It's a decently relaxed high.

It’s hours after I last smoked this, and I suddenly realized that my depression has been greatly alleviated. I’m wondering if this will generally help even beyond when I’m high. Need to test that out. Although I do want to note that I smoked this two or three times today (not a constant high, I did sober up in between smoking) so that could be part of it helping like this.

Kali Mist A helps with anxiety and depression | Indica

7/4/2019

Definitely helps with depression and anxiety. Relaxed. Munchies, oh wow I had the remainders I’d a blizzard and my waffle chocolate peanut butter thing. So yum. Beautiful sunrise the trees look like water paintings. Like there’s a water painting outside the window, except better because it’s real. But I think that when the light is just right even when I’m sober.

Been awake all night, not sure that this will exactly help me sleep but maybe it’ll help.

Was derealizing some before smoking, I think this has helped some.

Been in a good mood while high, and laughing easily.

I’m sobering up now, dissociation is about the same as before. But when it helped before I’d kept a steady high for over an hour I think, which I didn’t this time. That could be why it seemed to help before but definitely not this time. Need to experiment with keeping a steady high next time.

Critical Mass may help some with physical anxiety symptoms | Indica dominant

7/17/2019

Rough day. Something triggered me early on, then had a therapy AND doc appointment. Anxiety got bad enough that I had physical symptoms, even with the Kali Mist (cartridge) in my system.

For a while after getting home (and collapsing into bed because I was so done with the day) I kept having physical anxiety symptoms that were like adrenaline going through my body. I wasn’t smoking any Kali mist at that point because I thought it best to give myself a chance to work through emotions since I didn’t have to keep myself going for any more appointments.

So I was at the point of physical symptoms like adrenaline running through my body and not smoking pot, when I remembered that Critical Mass might help while still letting me process emotions.

It has helped the physical symptoms. Hasn’t made them go away entirely, but has alleviated them.

I don’t feel like I can say for sure that I’m still able to process emotions, but I think I am. Although the emotions are also a bit calmed. Still there and miserable, but with slightly less bite I guess.

Critical Mass |  THC 9.61% CBD 14.5% | Indica dominant  

Kali Mist cartridge | THC 79.6% CBD 0.28% | Indica 

Kali Mist cartridge | THC 79.6% CBD0.28% | Indica

I didn’t get any actual pot the first two times I tried. So even smoking in the first place will be something to learn.

Third try worked, it hurt. I guess it feels like it hurt my lungs? Feels like something to be avoided again, and I recognize the feeling from when I first tried this yesterday. But not as bad as yesterday, because I didn’t have as big a hit as I felt yesterday. And can be avoided/minimized I’m sure by just taking smaller hits, and/or not holding my breath before breathing it out.

This apparently takes a couple minutes to really hit.

aaaagh i messed up and lost part of what I wrote. Basically: I found it to give me a working high, hasn't helped with dissociation but then again smoking the bud doesn't fix that so quickly either. Helps and anxiety and depression. Was able to problem solve a concern/fear somewhat with a calmness I wouldn't have had while sober. Unpleasant physical feeling in my arms.

Just took another hit, about a second long. It feels like I took a deep breath of ice cold air, and that the icy air penetrated my body and I need to warm up. Or, that's kinda the best description I've got. It isn't fully accurate. Also took me three tries to actually smoke again this time.

Managed to take a small hit my third time. Didn't bother me so much, getting used to it and/or taking smaller hits is helping. Took more tries to even get a hit.

Relaxed, still a working high, though feeling some overwhelm. Possibly needed a bigger hit. Derealization has improved.

Another hit, a bit bigger but didn't bother me like before.

Limited help with sensory overload (which I wasn't having problems with before), dissociation comes and goes.

Smooth or harsh: smooth if I don't overdo it

Taste: not sure

Anxiety: helps

Depression: helps

Sleep:probably wouldn't help

Sensory issues: not as great

Kali Mist cartridge | Blueberry Kush | Monkey Tape

Vape to blueberry Kush to monkey tape.

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Kali Mist cartridge | THC 79.6% CBD0.28% | Indica

I had a bit of a roller coaster yesterday. First I got my hands on a Kali Mist cartridge. Initially it didn't seem to help how I wanted, and then I took a huge hit that was way too much. So I'll need to learn how to inhale an appropriate amount, and still need to determine if it'll help me the way Kali Mist bud does.

The high seemed to last a ridiculously long time, eventually I wasn't sure if I was still high so I just decided to smoke Blueberry Kush (Blueberry Kush | THC 24% CBD 0% | Indica) to get a high I was familiar with. Because not knowing whether I was even high at that point was weirding me out. (Note: I spent much of the day dissociated enough that I may as well as been high.)


TJ's Monkey Tape | THC 22.96% CBD 0.096% | Sativa/HY

After that I smoked a bit of Monkey Tape because someone put it in front of me. I think it gave me the working high, but that quickly passed because again I'd smoked too much and so had to deal with "oh shit this is unpleasant ok let's just wait for this to pass" again. I definitely have hopes for Monkey Tape being a working high, though.

Blueberry Kush, not a working high | Indica dominant

A bit of the three channel thing going on.

I already tried the Strawberry Cough this morning to see if it would give me a working high. It didn’t. While coming off of it I decided to try Blueberry Kush since it’s one I have had down as a working high. Now I’m dizzy and meh and I wonder if I just had too much of this to smoke. (Note: need to put down that I can’t seem to smoke too much of the Kali Mist.) Tired. Munchies but also cotton mouth. Dizzy. I guess this is what happens when both strains are combined? Maybe I didn’t think through switching to Blueberry Kush with the other still affecting me somewhat.

Later in the day

I sobered up and then was miserable with depression, so I decided to give Blueberry Kush another try. I’ve got auditory hallucination, same sort of thing I described this morning.

A good high for relaxing when I don’t want to do anything, but it’s definitely not a working high. I wouldn’t trust myself with anything important right now.

It hits hard, I feel more high while smoking less. 

Strawberry Cough | THC 21.79% CBD 0% | Sativa

I had an anxiety thought that I think I would normally have gone back to check if done something that I knew I’d already done, but with this I was able to to reason my way out of having to check on it just to calm my anxiety worry/fear so it would leave me alone. Now longer worrying even as I’m writing.

Auditory hallucination. Like someone’s rolling up a large wind up thing, except not quite, in my right ear.

Picked this up hoping it would be a working high, it was recommended to me based on me saying how  Kali Mist helps me. It’s a nice high, but definitely not a working high. So far this is a “relax because you’ll be doing nothing for an hour, and consider whether you should go back to bed” high. Can get myself together enough to write this, but can’t properly focus and keep getting distracted and then having to pause to remember what I’d intended to write next and where I am in the process of what I want to say.

Wow, this will be interesting to read when sober again. Also, I do intend to see what it’s like to keep this high going for a bit.

Still clearly interested in communicating/working/expressing myself though since I wrote all the above and am now even writing this paragraph, or rather sentence.

Oh and no munchies! I was eating breakfast, a chocolate muffin, while smoking. I only ate half the muffin and was finding it somewhat tasteless. So weird. And cottonmouth.

I think it would be great for helping me get to sleep.

Kali Mist A is a miracle and where has it been my whole life | Indica

I've already written glowingly about this one, but I want to write more on how it's helped me.

I've been smoking this throughout the day for several days now. Maybe four days? I'm not exactly sure. It has allowed me to be functional (a "working high" or "study high") in that it not only seems to motivate me to be doing things, it also does away anxiety and depression.

In the past few days I've started to do things again that I've missed doing, and started really trying to wrap my head around a new subject (quantum mechanics). I've started reading again, I'm halfway through the recording/editing process for a video, I was able to walk my dog without derealization bothering me (!!!), I've published a few posts on my book blog (including one I wrote...I actually free wrote a post there!), I've done a lot in cleaning/reorganizing my bedroom...and perhaps best of all, I didn't feel guilty/bad about any of this. With a minimum of that depressive thinking of "well this is worthless anyways why am I even bothering? may as well just do nothing instead because that's what depression logic says to do instead." And when that thinking does enter the picture, I can use more of Kali Mist to make it go away again and get back that motivation.

I'm pretty sure that part of the beauty of this is that it lets me have a new experience of these activities without the negative thoughts involved, so that this helps my brain learn that I can actually have positive experiences. Maybe that will help rewire my brain, given enough time, so that I can it comes to expect (and so feel) good feelings with these activities.

Also, I've smoked less of it today than I smoked yesterday, and I smoked less yesterday than the day before. The fact that less and less is required to help the same extent is something I'm very happy about. It would be awesome if I can get myself to where just smoking some at the start of the day would be enough to get me in the mindset I want throughout the day.

I don't have the energy to reread this post (it's been a long day) so I hope it's coherent.

Kali Mist A helps: depression, anxiety, derealization; working high | Indica

DEFINITELY helps depression and anxiety.

It seems that to help derealization you have to keep a semi-steady high for quite a few hours.This could also be the case if I do this with other strains (I haven't kept this kind of steady high very often before) and this is the first one I've just had the chance to discovery that with.

But anyways, I think that if I'm willing to stay high long enough this one will help with derealization. :)

I think I'd also call this one a "working high." I'd even call it a "do this when you want to study" high. I've literally spent hours watching videos on quantum mechanics while taking notes, and I definitely have a better idea of some quantum stuff now than I did before. While high on this. I guess it helped me relax enough to go exploring curiosities of mine, and stuff I've wanted to learn but hadn't realized I could until recently.

And now I'm going off and getting wordy. Maybe this gets me in a writing mood.

More added a day or so after the above was written, and for some reason before getting around to hitting that publish button:

Definitely a working high, I find that I'm able to use this to help me accomplish things and not feel my usual guilt around whether I'm using my time wisely. So, I get more done high on this than sober. This is definitely a handy tool.

Kali Mist A | THC 27% CBD 0% | Indica

Before smoking: derealization, sensory overload. Relying on sound canceling headphones to help me cope with sounds existing.

Relaxed. Sounds aren’t hard anymore. My head was briefly doing that three track thing. Slightly dizzy, but ok with that. SEEMS TO HELP WITH DEREALIZATION, or just a very interesting coincidence that it went away while I was high, and I continued to feel better even after the high wore off. Fucking amazing, if I’ve found a strain that actually works for that.

I know there was something else I wanted to mention, but I can’t remember it now.

Smooth or harsh: smooth

Taste: almost earthy but not quite

Anxiety: I think it helps 

Depression: helps

Sleep: TBD

Sensory issues: it helps, I was able to remove the sound canceling headphones

Blueberry Kush maybe causes depression feelings when I’m not already depressed | Indica dominant

Feeling pretty decent today. Had some wine and got tipsy, was just relaxed for that. Later smoked a bunch of this and now I keep getting flashes of depression thought and emotions. Not good.

I think I’ve written before that this one is good for depression. Maybe it does help depression overall, but it shouldn’t be used when feeling in a pretty good mood if shouldn’t be used.

OR, this could just be the case when smoking a LOT of it. Is that a thing that happens?