Grape Cinex, Grandpa's Finest, Gorilla Glue, Durban Poison

11/5/2019

Grape Cinex | THC: 16.36 CBD: 0.07 
Compassionate Circles LLC 

I've been smoking Grape Cinex today and yesterday. It's super smooth, I can take a couple big (for me) hits without even needing to drink something to prevent coughing.

I like it about as much as the regular Cinex, but it's been long enough since that one that I can't compare the two.

Gives me the same peacefulness of Kali Mist, but it's not a thinking high. Not to be smoked when there's something I've got to do, and will definitely be great for bedtime.

Grandpa's Finest
Gorilla Glue

I tried both of these a few days ago, they both got me really relaxed. They're both great strains to get again someday, I'm curious to learn more about the nuances of how they affect me.

12/8/2019

The last couple times I smoked Grape Cinex it made my heart race, which isn't ok. However that might have been becuase I smoked a whole bowl all at once because it stopped making me feel high so I just kept smoking more. It may be that I just need to be particularly cautious to not smoke too much of it all at once.

CW: sui ideation 

I suspect that Durban Poison was partially responsible for getting me in and later near a suicidal mind set. It clearly works beautifully for me so much of the time, but at this point I can't justify continuing to smoke it. Even if I had someone close at hand  to watch me I wouldn't want to potentially put myself through that again. Because Cherry Pie is so close to Durban Poison and generally has such a similar affect I'm undecided about whether to keep smoking it.

I also want to note that while my emotions were particularly wacky after I came within an inch of almost killing myself, the strains didn't affecting me as expected. In retrospect that could have been due to smoking a single strain for longer than expected, but I also need to be aware that when I'm in or near a mental health crisis that pot may not affect me as it normally does.